one day, there will be no denying.

and there we sat in endless thought, letting the silence devour our words and finding within silence itself, the only word we never could say. (or perhaps i refused to say admit).

You've traced it a thousand times with lips penetrating my own, finding their home among the tears I refuse to let go. You know I'm always turning away. It's a stubborn attempt of pretending the silence screaming the only word i most desired to leave my lips simply could not exist. (ohh but it can, you say). I've been told this a thousand times and yet I may never believe. (not yet, anyway).

I closed my hands in clenched fists, hoping relief would be found in my own willpower.
But you see, there is none when there is longer any denying what I see in your eyes. even when i refuse to look.

I've never said your name out loud, but i've traced it a thousand times with calloused fingertips to skin, finding within your eyes, a sincere whisper of your truth. It's sealed between a jawline and collarbone, a kiss of hope.